shadow in the mirror

if only i could shoo away and tell these guys about my preference maybe they would not have the guts to invite me to go out with them. but then again on the second thought, one out of ten would understand, the rest they would be very interested to know and find out more, merely because its one of their sexual fantasies. many have dared but none of them succeed. i dont mind, not at all. i am happy being alone. its not that i am a man-hater or man-eater oh what the f***ng word it may suits, i just don't need somebody at the moment. yes, i am scared of the word--COMMITMENT, its like a ten thousand pound gorilla sitting on my chest. i want to enjoy being free and unbound.